Life is blah!

*** I wrote the initial part of this post long back but could not complete it, so most of it is irrelevant now but considering how lazy I am, I choose to let it be. ***

Long time huh... Just been caught up with things... Nah, nothing important.. just the usual - movies (obsession is back at the wrong time), phone (to which I'm chipkoed all day), tv (watch the lamest of stuff as well - yesterday i watched NO ENTRY for the 15th time coz there was nothing good on television after the match which sadly, the fuckers lost), classes (that i don't go for - might just end up getting attendance F leading to an extension of my oh-so-lovely degree), major project (for which I don't do anything - my lab partner is on the verge of ratting me out to my supervisor), CAT prep (I dream about cracking the exam without any preparation. What? Its not as pathetic as it sounds), job preparation (for which, again, i'm not doing anything - have a broken back. how the eff will i work - its amazing how the human brain can come up with excuses to get out of just ANYTHING) - And today ladies and brothers, I'm here to talk about life.

I was watching Weeds few days back (Its a TV show). And Andy and Silus have a conversation which goes like this "Silus! Life is just blah blah blah. You hope for blah.. and sometimes u find it, but mostly its blah, waiting for blah. and hoping u r rite abt the blahs u made. and thn just whn u think u hv the whole blah'd damn thing figured out, surrounded by those u blah, death shows up.. and blah.. blah.. blah... "

What a perfect description ain't it? I would have agreed a few days back with that, but now I choose to differ. Life has taken an unexpected turn lately - and in a good way thankfully... I was tired of all the shit happening for sooo long. What is that is something I can't reveal as of now but one day sure. In time, everyone will know for sure. And so coming back to what dear Andy said about life - Well, life's not blah, blah blah. Life is love. Life is learning. Life is friendship. Life is perseverance. Life is patience. Life is strength. Life is crying. Life is being overjoyed. Life is sex. Life is growing old. Life is caring. Life is feeling. Life is fighting. Life is making up. Life is all of this and much more. But most importantly, life is LIVING.

LIVING - sustenance, existence, being alive, lifelike. But what is the truest meaning of living? What defines what is living? What is spirit? What is love? What is living without love? What is living with hatred, with grudges? What is life spent frustrated? What is life spent doing nothing? You come empty handed, you go empty handed. What matters is what you choose to do after u come empty handed and before u leave empty handed. What matters is what you make of it. Who says you have to do anything in life? You come, you eat, you sleep, you die.

What is it that makes one happy truly? Money? Big house? New cars? What does the society have to offer to us? tranquilizers and psychiatrists? Beer? Vodka? What do you do when u want to forget about everything? When you are too frustrated to do anything? Beer? Whiskey? Vodka? I'd say, try good food. Really cools me down. I'm never as happy as I am after good food. Satiated. Happy. Content.

Right?? OH FUCK IT.. Who the hell am I kidding? Life was always blah and it'll always BE blah!!