"You're awfully quiet today.. Is everything alright?" she asks him.
"Yeah.. just generally" he replies.
"You wanna talk about it?" .
"No, not really in the mood".
"Come on, it'll make you feel better" she says.
And after 5 minutes of "no" and "i 'm not in the mood to talk about it", he finally broke down...
For 2 years he had taken the news of his cancer with a smile... After constant chemotherapy and infinite meds, the pain had started to reduce and he was happy again thinking that this is it, it's finally working... and that he'd be better only to find the cancer return... It'll be alrite they keep telling him, don't worry, have faith in God... What they don't realize is how it feels to know that your life will be as fuked up from now on as anything... What they don't realize is that there is no permanent cure for cancer, no matter what you do, a slight mistake and it'll be back again staring you right in your face and telling you "Hey buddy, I'm back, hope you didn't miss me much"!!!
He's tired, he's broken, he's exhausted and he can't take it any longer.... He's sick of people sympathizing with him... It's funny how life messes with people, giving them so much at one time and then taking back more than what it gives them and then tells them "Hah! And you thought you had it all huh... Well, lets see how well you do now loser!" and it takes them all their life to put their shit together...
"I know how you must be feeling that you're the most unlucky person around to have succumbed to something like this but God gives troubles to only those who have the courage and the strength to bear with it... life is just testing you.. times change, yours will change too" she once told him... Only, he doesn't fuckin care what life has in store for him.. he's too scared to think about what lies ahead... They say that all the pain and the suffering, maybe everyone needs all of it coz you emerge out of it stronger and a better person..
What if you don't emerge out of it at all? What if this is it?... This pain, this suffering.. What if times don't change? What then?
Anyone here?
4 months ago
5 comments:
Who is this? Not the kind of subject I'd expect from you.
I'd have to say that with this kinda theme (genre?), try to come up wid better words that you put in quotes...sarcastic teasing lines din work out... thats all i could feel about this..[as quoted by dumbledore, "i could be as wrong as humphry belcher who though the time was ripe for cheese cauldrons" :) ]..lemme knw what you think about this..
nice change by the ways.
Duhood the post was menat to be snappy and so the sarcastic teasing lines!!!
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....check ur mail... :)
dats not you....what were u thinking??
i really like the last part with 'd courage and the strength'.More like as if ur d 'chosen one'...and the suffering has to end one way or the other...all u need is a little faith in urself and ur god..
hmmm Nice post..
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